I knew going into this pregnancy that one big thing I wanted to be different between this pregnancy and my first pregnancy was that I wanted the third trimester to be much more relaxing. With Ezra’s pregnancy, there were many things that contributed to stress in the final weeks leading up to his birth: The assumption that … [Read more…]
Deep breathing and relaxation are very important skills to cultivate for life in general, but doubly so when preparing for birth. My first therapist, a LCSW, introduced me to guided imagery relaxation techniques in 2009. At the time I was very leery of anything that remotely seemed like hypnosis for religious reasons. Over the past … [Read more…]
As I write this I am one day short of 23 weeks pregnant. Over the past three weeks I’ve felt very discouraged. I’m already dealing with so many pregnancy nuisances – heartburn, rib pain, indigestion, constipation, lower back pain, symphysis pubis pain, and fatigue. I was really hoping I would get further into pregnancy before hitting the … [Read more…]
Written on April 30, 2015 23 Weeks, 1 day Last week I realized that I didn’t remember what the pain felt like. I know it was bad and there was screaming, but it’s a blur, and I have no physiological memory of it. All that changed last night. I had a nightmare. I was at … [Read more…]
When I moved to NC in 2013, one of the first things I did (before we even moved) was start Googling to try to find resources to prepare for a VBAC in preparation for the birth of our next child. I was hopeful that, when the time came for us to have another, my birth experience … [Read more…]
Optimal fetal positioning is a hot buzzword in the natural birthing world, especially when it comes to VBAC. So what is it all about, and why does it matter? More importantly, what does the scientific research say? My Story I remember lying there on the operating table when they came back and told me my first … [Read more…]
Birth affirmations. Those wonderful mantras that mamas repeat to themselves in pregnancy and birth to maintain a positive outlook on birth. When I was preparing for my VBAC, I ATE THEM UP! (You can view the complete list of birth affirmations I used in pregnancy here.) Looking back, I almost find it humorous. Other times, … [Read more…]
I started preparing for VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) pretty much from the moment I brought Ezra (my first child) home for the hospital. His birth was scary, traumatic, and disappointing. I knew that the next time, I wanted a vastly different experience. I did a lot of research over the five years between his … [Read more…]
So, my official position is that recovery from birth sucks. But, it’s also sort of amazing. The first ten days of postpartum recovery were hard. Really hard. I do not deal well with anesthesia and definitely felt some postpartum crazy, even though I had a better experience. My limbs were tingly, my heart rate was … [Read more…]
How are you feeling?!?! The question comes frequently. And at 31 weeks now, I’m slightly surprised when I hear myself say, “Pretty good!” On Sunday, when someone asked me, “So are you ready to have that baby? Are you ready for it to be over?” again, I was surprised that my immediate answer wasn’t to … [Read more…]
I am coming to this space ready to be raw and ramble… you have been forewarned. I feel almost a stranger to the blank space. I’ve written so little here this year and for so many reasons. A year ago, we had just come into acceptance of my husband’s anxiety disorder diagnosis. We had just … [Read more…]
This pregnancy is starting to slow down a bit for me. I think that just comes with the territory the bigger you get! Over the last four weeks, I’ve struggled with some discouragement over the discomforts and the extra weight I’m holding onto. But, I’m still maintaining a positive outlook and not giving up. (Belly … [Read more…]
But in all of the busy-ness, that Still Small Voice has been calling me slow down and smell the roses and stop doing all. the. things. With these words I walked into 2014. And it’s one of the best choices I ever made. My journey into whitespace didn’t end up looking like I expected. … [Read more…]
Special needs parents are like a pitcher of water. We keep pouring out our energy for our children, the household, work and everything else. It’s no surprise that eventually there’s none left. We are left empty and we have nothing left to give to our children either. We need to find ways to fill ourselves back up with energy, joy and happiness so we can be full of wonderful things to give to pour out to our children.
If motherhood has changed me (emotionally, spiritually, psychologically), does not my body also have the right to be changed by motherhood?