And so I left it all behind. All the working for His favor. All the seeking for answers. All the desiring of the acceptance of people. Because He already has what I need. And He always has.
In that moment, I felt myself truly let go of “all else.” I felt myself running to his arms. Accepting his love, his peace, his forgiveness, and his grace.
When I really grasped it, that big weight that I had been carrying around (guilt, shame, expectations, fears) just slipped off my back.
Because there are no “entry-level” positions in God’s eyes. There are no ladders to climb to make us more important than another Christian.
Life just got a whole lot bigger and scarier. But the God I knew was still small and stuck in the box I created for him with my incomplete understanding of his grace.