What my first year of college taught me is that perfection – whether in your spiritual life or academic – is not possible, no matter how hard you try. That’s why we need Jesus. That’s why we need grace.
Growing up without a TV, never going to the movies, being terrified (literally) of rock music, and only having friends at my church – I lived in a clean, sterile little bubble of Christian goodness. It was safe, floating above the world – because I couldn’t touch them and they couldn’t touch me.
But I urge you, Christian who has been hurt by legalism:
Don’t give up on God. Hold onto faith.
Have you ever had your heart broken by a relationship gone wrong or a dream unfulfilled? Have you ever found yourself trying to find the answers to the blame game? Have you ever “done everything right” and still had it all go wrong?
I was standing in an empty dormitory room, the one right across from mine. It had been empty for the entire semester, but now it was where I was hiding all of my things that I was packing in boxes to mail home.
I was leaving, but I didn’t want anyone to know.
A war had been started within my soul. Part of me that believed that their opinion of me was also God’s opinion: that I really was a rebellious person if I didn’t follow their rules. But part that knew that there was a much bigger picture than that, that God cared more about me and my heart than how closely I followed a set of rules. The fight raged between these two ideas within me for several years to come.
After some prayerful consideration of the objective and direction of this series, I feel that it is necessary to share what I mean when I use the term “legalism.”
When I was living a legalistic lifestyle, I never would have called myself legalistic.
I was driving with a new friend back from the park, and we were discussing our religious backgrounds and some of the standards that we used to follow when we were growing up. We hit on the topic of dress and modestly very briefly, and when I shared with her the strict standards I held … [Read more…]
For four years of marriage, I based how good of a wife I was on my performance. …I stopped singing and shook my head at the irony, as I realized that this problem I have extended far beyond just my marriage. It originated in a faulty view of God that I had believed since childhood.
The more that I love and serve God, the more He’s going to love and accept me.
This morning my son woke up at 5:45, but was scared to enter the hallway because the hall night-light was broken. He crawled back in bed and went to sleep. Unfortunately for me, I have a touch of a cold and cough and as much as I wanted to go back to sleep, all I could … [Read more…]
2012 What a year! That’s the only way I can think to start this post. I had no idea what I was getting into at the beginning of last year. All I knew is that my husband was finally coming home for good and that I was worried about things like reintegration and putting our … [Read more…]
Celebrating the birth of Christ this year has been not only a natural response, but the ONLY response I possibly could have to God after all He’s done for me this year.
Note: If you have not read my post from earlier this week, Embracing Grace: My PWOC Story, please do so before reading this post. It really gives some more insight and background into what PWOC is and what it has come to mean to me. I think I have finally been able to process the multitude … [Read more…]
Russ and I have been discussing some concerns with our website for quite some time. We want to be able to share with family and friends, especially those who aren’t on Facebook, without bringing ourselves unnecessary danger by having too much information out there on the internet. Thus, we have renamed our website, taking off … [Read more…]