In contrast to years 2013 and 2014, I didn’t write at all about my one word for 2015 – hope. Partially because I sort of forgot. Partially because I was blogging less. Partially because I was busy. I thought about just leaving it in the archives and letting it die. But yesterday, I was driving … [Read more…]
August 25, 2015 – 39 weeks, 6 days I had originally planned to title this post “Strong enough? Finding the balance between female empowerment and dependence on God.” And I’m going to talk about that, I promise. But I realize, at 1 day shy of 40 weeks up at 5:30AM having contractions, that I can’t … [Read more…]
I am coming to this space ready to be raw and ramble… you have been forewarned. I feel almost a stranger to the blank space. I’ve written so little here this year and for so many reasons. A year ago, we had just come into acceptance of my husband’s anxiety disorder diagnosis. We had just … [Read more…]
I believe that faith grows stronger when it goes through doubt and crisis. I believe that it’s possible to question and wonder and doubt without it being rebellion against God. I believe that coming out on the other side of it with faith in tact is a beautiful thing. (See also the stories of Peter … [Read more…]
What’s your testimony? What has God done for you? I’m unsure how to answer the questions posed by a trusted counselor. In the past the story of my testimony has been the “easy” answer to the church-ese question: When did you get saved? I’ve never shared the answer here because my testimony is so much … [Read more…]
I started out 2014 seeing a lot of hurdles to climb. I saw a lot of stuff within our home that was messy, hard, frustrating, and unpleasant. A lot of days looked hopeless. My husband was working a low-paying temporary job. We hadn’t yet learned how to navigate the veterans benefits system. I didn’t have healthcare. We … [Read more…]
But in all of the busy-ness, that Still Small Voice has been calling me slow down and smell the roses and stop doing all. the. things. With these words I walked into 2014. And it’s one of the best choices I ever made. My journey into whitespace didn’t end up looking like I expected. … [Read more…]
Christmastime last year was a very difficult one for me. My husband was working a low-end temporary job making $15 an hour – with no time off for the holidays (not even Thanksgiving or Christmas). We had no Veteran’s benefits coming in yet. Neither of us had healthcare. We were living in an 850 square … [Read more…]
I think that there’s still a way to keep telling my story. To keep sharing openly and vulnerably. To shift focus more onto the beauty and still honor others in the telling.
It’s been quite some time since the last edition, and there is so much beauty to share.
And then I find myself saying, “At some point, it can’t be all about me anymore.” I think I feel this shift coming – this dichotomy between what my blog is and what it could be.
But what about the wake – the ripples and waves and spray and foam that toss and tumble about from the path cut by the ferry on this journey of healing through telling my story?
I really have no words for how difficult the last few weeks have been for our family. Our son’s behavior has led to both a suspension and expulsion from his private preschool (although those words were never used and the school was ever-so-gracious about both). While we are well on our way to getting some … [Read more…]
20 things I learned this summer
And I must keep changing – keep moving forward. That’s what life is. Becoming a new person over and over again. And just like the Doctor said, “…that’s okay. That’s good. You’ve got to keep moving. So long as you remember all the people that you used to be.”