And now this hangs above the very spot where I prayed a prayer out of complete hopelessness.
this choosing of whitespace, it’s a mighty work. I’m moving a mountain of stress, anxiety, fear, one shovel of scary crap and deep breath at a time.
I’ve realized that you never really stop being scared of marriage because you have to trust God to hold it together when life keeps throwing crap at you and you are just holding on to each other for the ride.
This is why our entire family needs whitespace. We need space and time for rest and healing. We need to slow down and catch up with everything life has thrown our way.
My husband bares no physical scars from war. But the scars on his mind and our hearts and our little family remain.
This Christmas season started off rough…Thanksgiving was simple but stressful, leaving me wonder how I was going to make it through the holiday season. I found myself decorating my Christmas tree in tears, only to be softly spoken to by God and reminded that joy can still be found in the darkest of times. I … [Read more…]
What can be done when the “Christmas Spirit” is broken? When even the simplest of holiday gatherings brings such stress that my husband cannot function as he should? How do I hold this family together for the rest of the holiday season?
I’ve decided to make “Beauty in the Mess” (previously posted as “Beauty in the Chaos”) an every-couple-weeks-ly blog segment. I’ve renamed it…simply because I keep referring to the term “mess” in relation to “beauty” in relation to my blog’s name and mission-statement-that’s-not-really-but-kinda-sorta-a-mission-statement. And because everything has to match and be symmetrical and grammatically parallel because I’m quirky like that. This is where … [Read more…]