My blog may be neglected…but…

I was going to get on here this morning and apologize for running behind on blogging…yet again.

Then I realized that I didn’t really care that much.

I love blogging. I love sharing my photos with the world. I love having a place to share inspirational thoughts or vent about life as it is. But I’m learning that time with my son is so much more important.

The older Ezra gets, the harder it is to spend time online. 1) Now, unless I am sitting at the kitchen table, he can reach the computer and wants to “help.” 2) He doesn’t like me to sit at the computer for long periods of time because he feels ignored and needs more interaction with mommy! What’s funny to me is that he doesn’t feel the same way about dishes and laundry. He will play quietly and contentedly as long as mommy is working…but if she is computer-ing? Oh no no! We can’t have that!!

At first, it was frustrating. For the past 4 years my online life has pretty much been my life. It’s my library, my coffee shop, my mall, my highschool and college yearbooks, and my family reunion…as well as my lifeline to my husband. But, the older Ezra gets the more I just enjoy playing with him and letting the rest of everything go. I’m learning to adjust. Everyone else can wait…

I have seriously thought about deleting my facebook account and quitting my blog, and while I think that it is possible, I don’t really think that’s practical. There’s too much I do socially through facebook – events, on-post and local activities, get-togethers with friends, playdates…not to mention the people who I would lose all contact with should I get off of Facebook. So, I’m not going to feel guilty for remaining on facebook or maintaining a blog. For some moms, that might be the answer, but it isn’t for me.

So here I am…yes, I am learning and struggling to find the balance. And my online friends will probably join me in admitting that I already spend too much time online as it is. But what people don’t realize is that I do a lot of my online stuff directly from my phone, which I can do while Ezra is nursing, or while taking a bathroom break, or while waiting in line at the grocery store…and do a lot of online stuff while Ezra naps.

Or, that sometimes I type a blog post with a baby sitting on my lap (like right now), (after already taking breaks to feed him breakfast, play blocks, and dance in the kitchen to “I’m a Little Teapot”)…and that it takes me an hour to finish instead of 20 minutes.

So, if I go a month or two without updating my blog…don’t worry. I’m still alive and well! I’m just doing something more important…