1. I get this. All of it. A brave choice. And there might come a day when you STILL don’t feel “wrinkled” enough and the Lord will say, “Okay, NOW.” And you’ll say, “What the heck? I’m not ready?” and He’ll say, “that means you ARE ready.”

    I wanna be there to see that go down.


  2. I am 10 years older and there are days I still feel these same things. I wonder if I will ever not feel it and yet there are days I feel on the precipice of it. I think feeling my own immaturity keeps me from moving forward sometimes because many my age are accomplished and I let that drag me down. I love that you said the wrinkles thing out loud. 🙂 I have met a lot of avatars and let’s just say photoshop works!

    • It’s good to hear that even age doesn’t fix everything. I imagine I’ll still have a boatload of personal drama to sort through once I get there, but hopefully it will be different from the drama that I have now.

      I didn’t know how to be any kinder about the wrinkles thing. Yes, photoshop works!

  3. I’m so touched by this post, and thank you for passing on Sarah’s words about identity and writing. I too (like everyone else!) am hoping to start a book at some point, but I’m going to give some real thought to whether I’m secure enough in myself and my voice to follow through. I think it is certainly something worth praying for.

    Also, you’re 26! That’s awesome! I wish I were 26! haha. I’m almost 29 (not that that’s old). I think you have a strong voice and a lot of wisdom, regardless of your age. Have a good week, girl!

  4. So ya looking T my wrinkles. I get it. But let me share with you something important. You have a voice. You have a voice today. Please let us hear your voice now today. What God has to give you is precious, right and pure. Please shout it from the mountaintop. Don’t let anyone tell you you’re too young. Write, share, publish now. You are given a voice for such a time as this. Do it now.

    • Thank you for your encouragement, Chris. I definitely plan to keep writing and publishing here on my blog and on guest posts on other blogs. I don’t think that I’m too young to write or share. But when it comes to my book ideas, there’s a lot of things to consider and I truly believe I’m not ready. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to write, even portions of those books. I plan on doing writing on the side (beyond blogging) to prepare for that, get my stories out, processed, heal from things, etc, now. But I just don’t think that right now is the right time to seek publication.

  5. Gabby

    Yes!! I feel this way as well. I have one or two book ideas in my head & my husband says I should do it. But I know I have some growing up to do, along with some homemaking & homeschooling.

    • Having Ezra right now is another big reason that I didn’t much go into. I already feel like blogging, writing, and social takes a lot of time away from my family and I struggle to keep all of that in right balance. My family needs to be my priority.

  6. You are brave friend. And it is humbling to watch you as you obediently wait for God to tell you the time. Having the desire to follow a dream is strength but waiting for God’s timing is courage. Thank you for these words today friend.

    • Thanks Dear Tonya! I so look up to you and enjoy your brave writing. And your ipod didn’t eat the comment. I set all my comments to go pending until moderation so I can keep track of them better. 🙂

  7. tonyasalomons

    Okay so my iPad ate my comment. I wanted to say. You are brave friend. Very, very brave. Having the desire to follow the dream is one thing, but waiting for God’s perfect timing and submitting yourself to His will? That is courage.

  8. K

    And this is why I haven’t been blogging in months. I still write. Every day actually. I was blogging because every one else is doing it, and I don’t want to do something just because every one else is doing it. It was just plain ol’ intimidating following eloquent writers. I felt like a small ant. Also, being obligated to readers, tweethearts, and fans was exactly that, an obligation. I have been avoiding my blog in every way and have even come extremely close to deleting it completely. In reality though, I’m not obligated to write for any readers, tweethearts, and fans. I want to write because I love it. I want to write because I enjoy it. I want to write because it brings a sense of calm.

    There I said it. I haven’t been saying this for months because of fear of what other blogger friends may think. Now, I can sign back on my blog with clarity and write on my on time, in my own way, for me. Thank you for listening!

    • Kayla: I so love this! You should write for you and Hod. Everything else is just frosting. If it’s an obligation, your true voice won’t come through. I’m glad to hear you have still been writing! That’s so commendable and probably even better than writing for the sake of pushing out posts just to have published content on your blog. Keep it up girl, and your friends and readers will still be here when you decide to start publishing again. (I’m actually going to write more about this in my next post…so…stay tuned.)

  9. Thanks so much, Aprille for your honesty. You have made yourself so vulnerable to share your dream and some of the struggles you have with others who have achieved that dream. I love how you have described God’s leading and how you are coming to terms with that. Not now messages are hard to hear sometimes, yet I have learnt over the years that there is definitely a season for things. Your words have been so encouraging to me today.
    Mel from Essential Thing Devotions

    • Thank you for stopping by Mel! While I originally thought the “not now” message would be difficult to hear, I was actually so incredibly relieved. I felt a lot of pressure taken off when I could finally say to myself, “You’re young, you have plenty of time” instead of wondering how I was going to work writing a book into my already busy, stressful life. I’ve felt so much happier since I made peace with that decision!

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