1. I’ve been reading your story since we left a toxic environment in an IFB church a year ago. My husband was raised in an IFB church as a preacher’s son, so I sent him several of your posts from your series on legalism and grace. Each time he read one, he would say, “whoever wrote this is totally the female version of me.” Needless to say, your transparency gave us a voice in one of the most difficult times of our lives. Walking away from all of that has been terrifying, as it’s ingrained in us to fear God’s curse for leaving. It’s been a challenge to balance leaving legalism and still pursuing a healthy relationship with Christ. I wrote a post not long ago saying my prayer is often “just don’t let me do anything stupid.” Because really, I don’t know what else to say. I used to have all of the answers and now I question so many things. This post resonated with me, as I’ve been in this place many times this last year. I so badly wanted a quiet time moment where my doubts and fears dissipated while God’s glory would shine from Heaven. Instead, I would walk away even more confused and disheartened. As with all things, I try to hold to what I know to be true in His Word. I try to cling to grace that covers the areas I don’t understand. I apologize for the long-ness of this comment, but I wanted you to know that God has used your story to help us. It’s been good to know we aren’t the only ones with this struggle (which we’ve all been taught either means you’re backslidden or maybe not even saved). Thank you for your openness.

  2. Courtney

    I also feel too exhausted/stressed to do much spiritual/religious practice. Most of my prayers are simple pleas to God to help me feel love and compassion for my son. But I don’t feel guilty if I “de-stress” by watching a movie or reading a book. If that’s what I need to refresh myself so I have something left to give my son, than that’s what I should do. Sometimes I think we’re just too hard on ourselves. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

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