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  1. Absolutely beautiful. I am there with you. Struggling through beliefs I’ve held on to for so long, letting go of fear, and embracing the grace. Our journey sounds so similar right now. I will be praying for you. Pray for me.

  2. Shelly R

    Beautiful Aprille! As I read along I kept thinking you were writing my story. It’s a sad thing that so many have grown up in this fear. Which does nothing but lead to more fear. And that God is the complete opposite of fear. Learning right along with you.

  3. Meg Melnik

    Aprille, your words are profound. Thank you for sharing your journey with God. I am certain that your honest searching will bless you as you walk through the struggles and joys of life.

  4. I have a soft spot for CCM and will always be though I am somewhat more, uh, critical with it the last few years.

    So when I read the lyrics and though “wow this is beautiful” and I read the author toward the end I chuckled.

    God has a sense of irony, truly. I keep learning that.

    • Overall, Stephen Curtis Chapman is pretty far down on my list of artists that I enjoy listening too, but this song met me in this moment and I’m very grateful for it.

  5. I love when God speaks to me through a song. And I love how brave you were to share your story with brutal honesty. Thanks for sharing and it isn’t about what God has done it is about what is God is doing, love that revelation. 🙂

  6. Aliyah

    Hey Aprile, thank you for sharing what you are are going through. I too have waded in this muddy water and am blessed to be out on the other side. Still daily I am learning though how to just be, how to stop striving, stop pushing. I even learned that I would pray because I would feel guilty if I didnt and when I stopped doing that I started to grow closer to Christ. I also agree with you so much – that there is so much jargon and so much “christenese” language terms that people use that have no meaning and that only enslave people. The closer you draw to God, the closer you draw to yourself and when you journey to your heart, you will be able to let go of the disconnect and finally connect. It’s all about turning in to who He created you to be – to see yourself as the beautiful creation that you are, because you are! I bless you to know this and to know you are so deeply legitimate you dont need anything else! Blessings!

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