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  1. Oh sweet Aprille! I so understand this and I have been there! I was there earlier today when there was just not enough of me to go around! But grace..oh His grace. I have to remind myself daily lean into His grace.

    I love that you ran to His Word. That is the hope we have.
    His Word.
    His grace.

    love you and your heart!
    praying for you and Ezra!

  2. Robin Jingjit

    Awesome post. I have to remind myself so often that my weakness is what keeps driving me back to him. I was just teaching my students yesterday how God doesn’t save us by making us better and better people until we’re good enough. And that’s true for me- his salvation for me and my parenting isn’t my transformation, that’s just a lucky thing that comes along in the package.

    I’ll be checking out more of your site- I found you from the linkup at honest mom.

  3. I have/had a child with neutropenia…no ability to fight bacterial infection. We had newborn fever rules and were under house arrest if the blood count wasn’t favorable…even if she was perfectly fine. I get it…I really get it. Thank you for tbe inspiring verses! (Found you via honest mom…great blog! )

    • oh WOW! That sounds so heartbreaking and exhausting! I’m sure you had so many long, hard, feeling-isolated days. Thanks for being so understanding! And for stopping by from the linkup!

  4. I’m not religious, but this post still resonated with me. I’ve had to acknowledge that I’m just not the mother I wish I could be. Being at home with my kids makes it even easier to see my flaws and harder to accept them.

    But at least seeing my flaws means I can work on them. And I try.

    (Visiting from Honest Mom.)

    • Thanks so much for stopping by and leaving this comment. It’s so nice to know that I’m not alone in this realization of inadequacy! I stopped by your site and am following on twitter and pinterest.

  5. Beautiful. I feel like I could have written this. I feel like such a sucky mom sometimes. I’m working on it. I recently read Hope for the weary mom as well ang was so encouraged by it.

  6. This whole post really resonated with me, but especially #3. I’ve suffered from clinical depression for most of my life, and even when my moods are pretty stable, the energy just isn’t there. When it comes to things I could or should be doing, I always run into the negative thoughts and feelings that come with my daily tendency toward inaction. If I admit to myself that it’s likely due to laziness, I just end up feeling more depressed, but if I allow myself to blame it on the depression- well, things still don’t get done and I can’t help but continue to wonder if I’m not just making excuses for myself to some degree. Your approach to embracing your weaknesses is beautiful, and one I’d like to emulate. Because you make a good point, and it’s one that I forget all too often, especially when I most need to remember- whenever I fall short, I should not seek to despair, but rather seek to God, in whom all things are possible.

    • You are definitely not alone in this. I struggle with depression and anxiety as well (It’s much more situational and dependent on weather and my health than anything…bad weather, illness, fibro flareups, and other stuff usually comes first and then I get depressed as a result). Honestly exercise helps me out a lot, but I haven’t been able to get to the gym because my son has been sick so it’s just rough all the way around. Thanks for your comments. Headed to check out your blog now.

  7. Just when I start to doubt (again…for the umpteenth time) that God cares about me, I randomly see a link for this blog and feel the heart of another mom who is feeling much the same way as me. I’ve been a mom for 23 years now and can’t seem to get it “right” yet. Shouldn’t that be enough time to figure it out? Yeah, you’ve confirmed that I’m somewhat “normal” when it comes to being a mom, so thank you for being real. I’m bookmarking your blog. I have a feeling God might need to show me some other stuff here too. 😉 Blessings to you!

    • Aww this comment really made my day. It’s so great to hear of even experienced moms who feel this way!!!! I just want people to know that it is normal to feel overwhelmed because for so long I believed the lie that I was the only mom who wanted to run away from life.

  8. Great post but I have a feeling that you are much better than you give yourself credit for! Just admitting your downfalls means that 9/10 of the battle is already won! Bless you! (visiting from Christian Mommy Bloggers)

  9. […] I ask God why. Why from the day he was born does this one have to be so so hard? Why a broken birth experience? Why the recovery complications and postpartum depression? Why breastfeeding struggles? Why nineteen months of sleepless nights? Why the moments of near insanity? Why the turbulence? Why the potty training problems? Why the crying at bedtime every. single. night? Why oh so many days when I simply wasn’t enough?  […]

  10. Lizzie

    Hi Aprille

    Thank you for taking the time out to share your experiences. I have CFS and am considering becoming a parent. I really want to be a mummy but I am scared I won’t be able to do a good enough job. Your blog posts are really helpful in giving me an idea of how to balance energy and motherhood.

    Many thanks and best wishes

    Lizzie

    • Lizzie, I wish you the best in this decision. Motherhood is hard and exhausting, but there is SO much grace as well. There are many successful mothers out there who also deal with chronic illness. I hope you come to peace about your decision either way!

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