But as I stood there in front of her, humbled as she gave me a necklace, an awkward hug, I didn’t see a star – I saw a sister.
And then she knelt down next to me, asked me questions, and got to know me as well as anyone can in a ten-minute conversation. I felt understood and noticed and cared for.
All he knows is mommy was gone and all was not right in his world, but now she is home and he can let go.
Here we are. It’s Thursday night and Lisa Jo Baker is standing here about 5 feet from me and we are at the Live Five Minute Friday at Allume. And I’m going to attempt to write this on my (borrowed) iPad which I haven’t had much practice typing on. And she chose a word I … [Read more…]
But then Allume will be over and I will return to the real. To the one-on-one. To the ladies I sit next to in choir and church Bible study and potluck dinners.
But I do have a confession. One big fear. The biggest of big. One that I have hinted at and tried to plan and control away. It’s the one I’m scared of the most.
So I am glad for the lists, the binder, the checklists, and all of the planning that I have put into this conference. There’s a time to plan intentionally and a time to surrender those plans to God willingly.
And so, if you see me at Allume, I will still be sporting this tote bag. And maybe, just maybe, if I’m really brave – I’ll tell you how even though I learn the lesson of God making “everything beautiful in His time,” I still sin and need it lovingly and graciously taught to me time and time again.
Now it’s just me and God. No more lists. No more plans. No more subscribing and following and blog stalking. Just some mental quiet over the next four weeks to see what HE wants to do.
It’s time to share the 10 things that I feel Leah, Whitney, and Jamie need to know about me to survive four days in a hotel with me!